New Beginnings

I guess, this is it- the start of something new. As much as I'd want to start afresh and forget all that happen, I know it would be hard. Starting all over again is easy. However, it's not easy to forget the past.

It's the third week of school, my second week with my classmates. I'm starting to get along well with them and I really hope that they'll accept me for who I am and that history will not repeat itself for the third time. I've screwed up twice and I'm not gonna screw up anymore this time.

CY: I remember the promise(s) we've made over the last few years and I've kept my promise so far. I've really done well in my exams and I'll keep up with the good job as I strive to excel where I am now.

I guess this is all for now. I'd try to update posts from last year when I've got the time.

2/12 Science Centre, CSI Exhibition & Farewell Dinner

Went to Science Centre with my bro, Sharon, and her bro. We met at Jurong East MRT and walked over. Had lunch at the cafe in science centre cause the Macs was crowded with students on excursions. It was drizzling when we left for home. It started raining heavily after we got home. Went to Oxley in the evening for farewell party cause uncle Ze Han is goin back to HK. I think the party is just an excuse for a family gathering.

End of November

25/11
Went back to NHPS with my Bros today. Benny is getting back his results. Although he did quite well, his results was quite a disappointment for he could have done better.
26/11 & 27/11
spent most time playing FB, practicing piano and tidying book shelf...
29/11
Cleared my shelf a little. Had piano lesson in the evening.
30/11
Went to the library with my bros in the morning. Lunched at IMM before heading home. played FB games before I showered and got ready for prom. I find the planning and all quite a screw up. Although it is probably a once in a lifetime opportunity, I definitely found it boring to a certain extent. I left early cause my parents have to work the next day and I can't expect them stay up late just to wait for me...

RED CAMP

22/11
First day of Red Camp. Left early so that I can estimate the time it takes to get to NP. Had fun and got to know more about some of the courses offered. Went home early cause I've got piano lesson in the evening.
23/11
Left home earlier than my mum and dad today. Was there quite early. Got to know more about some of the courses from the schools we did not go to on the first day. Learnt mass dance after Dinner break. I met my pri sch tuition friend during the lunch break. We chat for quite a while. After the program ended, I took a bus home. Got to know someone from my group. She was asking me for directions to Clementi MRT.
24/11
Today is the last day of Red Camp. Got to know more about some of the CCAs offered and got to experience what the students of the particular CCA does. There was hop night and I sure did came prepared. I made good use of the ear plugs I got from dad. It certainly did protect my ear drums. Although I was still able to hear the loud booming music blast out loud through the speakers, I don't find it very loud. It sound more like listening to my MP3. Anyway, I left early again. This time not because I had no choice it was because I wanted less trouble. If I were to stay till everything ends, I'll be home late and my parents would have to sleep late. Dad came to pick me up before picking Benny up from Theory lesson. Overall, I quite enjoyed the camp. I shall also keep to mind not to attend 2 camps straight for it's very draining. I was tired by the end of the camp activities...

TPRAWKS

18/11
First day of TPRAWKS. woke up early so that I would be there on time. Dad dropped me off at Paya Lebar mrt and I took mrt down to Tampinese and then took a shuttle bus to TP. After registration, I went to settle down with my group. I took out my journal and started to write a little, prefering to stay within my comfort zone for I do not really know my group members that well. I try to participate, but I still observe my surroundings and try not to be over enthusiastic like in school. I wouldn't want the same thing that happen in school to happen here. Thankfully, everyone is quite enthusiastic as well. I guess I'll need a little more time to step out of my comfort zone.
19/11
Today is the second day. My mum dropped me off at Woodlands MRT before going to work. I was early, so I stood at the pickup point reading a book. I was probably more than an hour early. Had dragon boating after lunch and it was really a great experience for me. I enjoyed it for it's my first time. It was 8:30pm by the time I was home and bumped into my dad at the lift lobby. I decided to shower first. It was nearly 9pm when I had my dinner. probably supper time for most people already...
20/11
Today is the 3rd day and also the last day of TPRAWKS. Left home early so that I could be there earlier. I had loads of fun today. I was quite surprised when I got best rawker of my group. I was expecting someone else to get the prize cause there were few other group members who were as enthusiastic. Although I don't quite like english songs or loud musics, I tried to have some fun during JAM & HOP. I received a call before it ended. My parents are gonna pick me up earlier. This somewhat spoil my mood. One of the PLs tried to make me dance with the rest. However, I just have no mood to do so. After I went home, I still had to help my new maid to settle in. Life will be different after today...

End of O Levels

I know that it's been more than a week since my Os ended. You might be wondering why I've not posted anything in the past week. So, the reason is simple. I've been busy. Well, most might wonder what I might be busy with since there's so much time to relax. So this is gonna be a long post as I recap my activities starting from the last day of O levels.

12/11
my parents dropped my in school in the morn so that I can study for my sci paper. then they went overseas the same evening. they were gone by the time I arrived home.
13/11
I did nothing much in the morning. I went for piano lesson in the afternoon and missed bus 173 cause the driver assumed that i wanted to take 106 which was infront. so had to wait for ard 30 minutes for the bus. Hence I was 30 minutes late for my 1st piano lesson after stopping lessons for slightly more than 11 months. went to IMM for dinner after I return home from piano lesson. after that, went to giant to buy vegetables, fruits and eggs...
14/11
went to IMM with my grandparents in the morning cause grandma still have some shopping to do at giant. had some food before heading home. after lunch, I took a bus to clementi to meet pei yu. we walked around and finally settled at KFC for a drink and some snack. we chat and talk about how much things have changed since we left NHPS and since we last met. This seriously allowed me to think and reflect more about life, about how much things have changed. not only have I changed, so have some of my peers from primary school. sadly, some of them are no longer the innocent kid they once were. Some have chaged alot.
15/11

stayed home all day. my aunt came and we ended up playing majong with jia qi after tea break all the way till dinner time.
16/11
watched unstoppable with sharon, siyuan and meiling at kallang leisure park. walked around before heading home after the movies. practiced piano after dinner and went up to watch tv with my grandparents...
17/11
stayed home all day. helped my mum paint the gate and also prepared tuition materials...

Still Innocent?

"Do you think your character will change?" Mei Ling asked me at the end of SSP while we were packing up. I was taken aback by her question and asked her what she meant. "Maybe not since I've not changed much the past few years." I replied.
"Because I saw that you were quite smart just now. I'm afraid that you'll become bad. Smart people usually become bad." She told me. Then she left with Si Yuan to catch the shuttle bus out to the MRT while Huey Ying waited for me to walk out to the parade square to wait for our parents.
That night, I stayed up late thinking about this question. It was a simple yes or no question yet it made me think hard about an answer for I am sure there is no definite right or wrong to my answer. What I think might not happen might happen. Who knows? Who knows what I'll be doing in 10 years time? Who knows what if my friends and I will remain as friends forever just like how clase we are now, laughing, joking, chatting and me trying to be sarcastic.
For now, I'll tell you that I will not change. I guess I will not change and hopefully I do not change much, maybe just change and become a better person. My reason is simple for I am not a person easily influenced. I do not believe what anyone says unless it is reliable, credible, just like a history source. I know clearly I have not changed much over the years though my classmates have for they who used to be someone I know seem like a stranger today. I no longer know what type of person they are. The classmates I know when I first met are so much different. From a young and innocent child, they have succumbed to peer presure, changed their habbits, not being themselves, pretending to be someone they are not just to gain acceptence. To me, I feel that there is no need for these. I just want to be myself and I want people to accept me for who I am and not accept me because I am just like them. It feels pathetic to be like that.
I have grown alot. My thinkings have changed. I'm probably not as childish as before. In the past 4-5 years, I've seen quite a bit of the world. I have probably experienced more than some of my friends have. I am no longer innocent...